Recently I had an encounter with someone I once looked up to. She was a thought leader in my industry and I was hoping to connect and learn from her (maybe even become friends! We seemed to have so much in common!). I was hoping to get on her radar and join her network... only to have all of it shattered when I realized she was full of insecurities, competitive thinking, showmanship, and crap, all veiled under the pretenses of "enlightenment" and "compassion".
At the same time this realization hit, so did this article on Business Insider where Stefanie Williams destroyed under paid Talia Jane. When I first read the article, I remember agreeing with some points, feeling Stefanie's passion I even thought about sharing it, but then stopped myself because I realized I never actually read the original article she was referring to by Talia, and I didn't want to spread such criticism without considering Talia's experience. You see, I too waitressed to get to where I wanted to be, but there is a HUGE difference between waitressing or bartending and earning minimum wage. I see this often with my clients who are working minimum wage and for one reason or another can't get a serving job. In serving you can make minimum wage, but you can also make $500 in one hour. There's a huge difference in supporting yourself on these wages, and I have a lot of respect and empathy for Talia's struggle.
I am SO glad I waited to share the article because today, this article by Sara popped up.
Sara writes, "Spoiler: kicking a younger sister when she’s down in self-congratulatory snark is neither gracious nor humble."
Just like Stefanie, this person I once looked up to, used my low point to bolster her own false sense of being "better than" us younger more inexperienced folk. In this person's weekly newsletter she used my weakness, my mistake, my struggle to put herself on a pedestal; describing herself as if she transcended above it all by being able to identify her emotional plight - however where is her action to support that awareness? Being aware of your internal dialogue is only half the battle... it's what you do with that awareness that matters! How are you actually the change? You see Stefanie and this person did not actually offer compassion, empathy, or a helping hand. They both judged and passive aggressively attacked Talia and myself, only to boost themselves higher with half-baked truths and buzz words.
Words only mean so much - but your actions truly define you and it really does break my heart to pull back the curtain on these things and see the truth.
Recently, www.whatmillennialswant.com asked me what I was "confused" about and I stated "everything and nothing all at the same time" - and it's because of exchanges like these described above.
Nothing is ever what meets the eye, and I guess this week was a friendly reminder from the universe to not believe everything you read on the internet ;-).
NOTE, in an effort to not be full of crap, I want to shine a light on myself and my past: I've lied, I've cheated, I've stolen, I've been passive aggressive, and made more mistakes than I can count in my life. I've said one thing and done another. I am not perfect, I am not transcended, but I do try to make an effort that my words align with my emotions and my actions. If it doesn't feel right and I can't support it with action, I usually (96% of the time) won't say it or agree to it; and I certainly WON'T promote it.
Nobody is perfect, my issue is when others go on larger platforms to promote that they are better than instead of taking the opportunity to actually learn the full story and truly help a sista out.
With love, honesty, and respect,